Worries about getting a job,
Finding somewhere to live,
Money.

How much you miss that family member you’ll never get to see again.

Wondering if you’re going to make that deadline,
Hoping you don’t forget about something important.
Everything seems to be riding on something else,
But you don’t have the time, the energy or the fight left in you to get it all done.

Trying to help everyone else but losing yourself in the process.

Wishing it was summer and you could go back to the days where nothing really mattered,
Because everything was great,
And even though you fought with your friends,
They would still talk to you the next day.
And when they would still drop anything if you needed them.

Wishing the snow would melt and take all your worries with it.
Trickling into rivers and streams,
Carried off in the current.

You’re trying to dream,
But you’re reality makes them pop,
Like balloons hit with darts.

You wish you could pause time,
Just for one more minute of the happiest days of your life.

I don’t understand how people can purposefully harm themselves.

Yes,
I’m fully aware that I’m killing myself.
That’s okay.
It’s not going to do anything.

But it does.

And when you expose others to your stupidity,
And it affects them aversely,
And then you’re kicking yourself in hindsight.
Except you knew it was stupid in the first place.

I have no qualms about you feeling guilty.
You did something stupid,
You knew it was stupid,
Live with the consequences.

Makes so much sense I can’t stand it.

—

People without patience.

They confuse me too.
Stress yourself out about the stupidest things,
Lash out at people for no real reason,
Then go do something to calm yourself.

Something that will kill you.

Genius.

I just can’t even stand the amount of genius contained in that one little act.

—

People need to calm down.
Really.

Everyone’s so busy rushing around,
Worrying about money,
About the future.

It’s silly.

Plan yeah, but there needs to be balance.

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Incoherent rambling brought to you by the reading of Thomas More’s Utopia, Dan Brown’s The Lost Symbol and musings on the both of them.

I’m sure there will be something more coherent on the subject eventually.
When I’m less angry with people’s blatant stupidity.

It could take a while.

In the meantime,
I suggest you go read them both.

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Quote of the Moment: ‘If no one even listens, why try to be heard?’ – Katie van Ryn

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Quote of the Moment: ‘The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears’ – Proverb

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I stumbled upon this quote on a forum a few days ago,
And posted it on my Facebook page,
Wondering what other people would say about it.

My friend who was with me at the time was very contemplative and awed at it,
Just like me,
However,
It pains me to say that everyone who commented on Facebook made it into a big joke.

It kind of makes me worry that people can’t see the meaning in things.
I thought this one was so obvious,
But I guess not.

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I don’t know really where I was going with this,
I suppose I could go on some super-long rant about war and the like,
But really,
I’m just feeling sad.

We talk much,
We love only a little,
And we hate too much.

We reached the moon and came back,
But we find it troublesome to cross our own street and meet our neighbors.
We have conquered the outer space,
But not our inner space.

These are times with more liberty,
But less joy.
With much more food,
But less nutrition.
These are days in which two salaries come home,
But divorces increase.
These are times of finer houses,
But more broken homes.

That’s why I propose that as of today — You do not keep anything for a special occasion,
Because every day that you live is a special occasion.

Search for knowledge,
Read more,
Sit on your front porch and admire the view without paying attention to the needs.
Pass more time with your family,
Eat your favorite food,
Visit the place you love.

Life is a chain of moments of enjoyment; it isn’t only survival.

Use your crystal goblets.
Do not save your best perfume… use it every time you feel you want it.
Take out from your vocabulary phrases like, “one of these days” and “someday”.
Let’s write that letter we thought of writing “one of these days.”
Let’s tell our families and friends how much we love them.
Never pass up a chance at adding laughter and joy to your life.

Every day, hour, and minute are special,
Because you never know if it will be your last.

If you’re too busy to take some minutes to share this message with someone you love,
And you tell yourself that you will share it “one of these days”
“One of these days” can be very far away, and you may not be there to see it.’

– unknown

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Quote of the Moment :  We Live – Superchick (http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mCxZvD_wZ6I)

Mkay, here goes.

Mid-terms are upon us it seems.
Not hard per-se,  but difficult to keep focused on things you know when you read them.
Hopefully everything goes okay.

Also, I’ve been playing Scribblenauts and Kingdom Hearts 365/2 Days.
Scribblenauts is amazing.
I hadn’t been anticipating it, but someone said I should play it, so I did.
It’s just so random and hilarious.
I love how everything is made to look like paper,
How it’s easy, but with enough difficult parts and little extras to make it interesting,
And how many hilarious things you can create.

Kingdom Hearts on the other hand,
I was very excited for,
Unfortunately,
It has yet to meet expectations.
People I know who have played it said it was good,
But I haven’t yet seen this.
It will probably pick up,
But so far it’s going the same direction as Kingdom Hearts 2.

Cut scene after cut scene after cut scene, with very little game play in between.
It’s really frustrating.

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I also re-watched AVPM, and downloaded the soundtrack.
While I love that there are no screaming fans in the soundtrack,
The words they ‘changed’ and the mostly acoustic nature leaves me more inclined to listen to the scenes instead.
I like that they are more powerful and…musical-y….
I don’t know, they seem to have more spirit I guess is what I mean.

Anyway.
It was really entertaining.
My roommate thinks I’m even more insane than she had originally realized, however,
But I don’t mind.

I like Dumbledore’s ending in the musical better than the book I think.
Yep.

Yay! Vagueness to avoid spoilers.
I’m insane.

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In other news, I have another new awesome writer to share with you.
Corina90 on DeviantART.
She’s a fairly popular writer, I see at least one of her pieces on the front page everyday,
But I figured I’d share anyway.
Here’s one from today that I absolutely adored:

http://Corina90.deviantart.com/art/i-keep-looking-141452289

Have a look at her other pieces too.
I’m sure there will be something you like.

I’m always amazed with people who can take their feelings and write them out so poetically.
Whenever I try,
It’s just a blob of fact,
Nothing beautiful or intriguing about it.

Ah well.
At least there are people who share, and I can read their work and imagine I could possess even a shred of their talent.

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Today is so beautiful,
I would much rather be outside, running, playing, photographing,
Than stuck inside trying to learn about brains.
Hopefully it will be this lovely tomorrow, when I have the option of going out there.

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Quote of the Moment: ‘Appreciation is a wonderful thing; it makes what is excellent in others belong to us as well’ – Voltaire

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I am also quite sad because the auto-spam blocker for this site won’t let me see anything it blocks.
I don’t care if I have to spend hours looking through it,
I want to see what people write,
Even if it’s crazy or annoying.
Or at least have the option of seeing it.

Not in the seemingly ‘traditional’ sense.

Everyone around me now seems to think that to learn something,
You have to rehearse it over and over,
Poring over every detail until you can’t stand it any more.

That doesn’t work for me.

I’m unused to having people who think this way around me.
Constantly.
‘Why aren’t you studying?!’
‘You’re going to fail your exams if you don’t study!’

They don’t seem to understand that I am studying,
I am learning.

Just not the same way that they are.

I wish they would either figure it out,
Or leave me alone.

—

I’ve been planning this big rambling post for a few weeks,
But every time I go to write it,
My inspiration slips away.

I’ll figure it out eventually.

—

I’ve been getting my days mixed up again.
My weeks are essentially symmetrical,
I have no anchor point that helps to remind me of the days,
So it’s easy to get confused.

Regardless,
Today is Tuesday.
A day full of Psychology it seems.
I have a night class on Tuesdays.
Approximately 3 hours of my crazy professor making hilarious voices.

It’s nice, but I keep falling asleep.

Anyway, not the point.

For part of our credit in the class,
We have to participate in lab studies.

Today,
Even though I forgot it was Tuesday,
Was my first one.

Ironically,
It was about memory.

A theme of the day it seems,
As my later class,
And the attitudes of the people on my floor,
Seem to be revolving around this concept.

I think it has to do with the impending mid-terms.

Everyone is stressed.

Maybe I should be too,
But I’ve come to realize that stressing only leads to forgetfulness.
Not very useful on a test.

I had to write down a bunch of words and rate their relevance to an alien visiting Earth.
Yeah, I didn’t really get it either….

Anyway, I was talking with the student who was  supposed to watch me while I did it,
But he left,
I think he’s gotten bored of doing the same test over and over.

However,
I think I distracted him,
Because he was supposed to take my first paper from me before I did the second,
But he didn’t.
So I could copy my answers.

I didn’t,
But the opportunity was there.

It was a strange experience,
But one I’d be willing to repeat.

I just wish he was allowed to explain what it was about.

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Quote of the Moment: ‘So I bought this cute little stuffed sheep, It makes a noise when you squeeze it. It’s so cute!’
mmmmmmmmmmmm‘Can I squeeze it?’
mmmmmmmmmmmm‘NO! It sounds so awful!’
mmmmmmmmmmmm‘I thought you said it was cute.’
mmmmmmmmmmmm‘My sheep?’
mmmmmmmmmmmm‘Yeah.’
mmmmmmmmmmmm‘I know, eh? Isn’t it just the cutest?’

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I think, I need to make more sense.

But for some reason, everything seems to be going wrong.

I’m happy enough, but the daily events are just going crazy.

Let us list them:

- Realized I have over 600 pages to read in 2 weeks not including intensive studying
- Spilled both ginger ale and hot chocolate on my blanket and rug… within about 15 minutes of each other
-Almost fell down a hill
-No one is really talking to me, or they leave halfway through, it’s making me sad
-Fell asleep in Psych for no discernible reason (I wasn’t tired at all)
-Feeling really ill in the mornings and night time
-Am completely confused about what day it is
-Trying to pick my courses but the system keeps kicking me off, right now I have Tuesdays and Thursdays off…the most useless days….
-Kept either dropping or flinging my pencils across the room
-Forced to spend $40 on  program I’m never going to use
-My group for the class the program is for isn’t very cohesive, one of the girls is completely out of it and I have to hold her hand all the way through, I shouldn’t have to feel like I have to do everything by myself

Among other things I’ve probably forgotten.

Noone wants to hear me rant though, people like happy things.
Like squirrels.

We have and abundance of squirrels here.
Also geese,
But squirrels are cooler.

Their little fluffy tails,
Their little, hop-run,
So cute.

Also music.

If you haven’t listened to Lights new album,
I suggest you do so immediately.
There’s nothing bad on there.
All good stuff.

Also,
Go watch Glee.
It’s so random and unrealistic,
But it’s so good,
I don’t exactly know why,
But it’s so good.
My mom and I spent the whole weekend I should have been doing other things watching all the episodes of Glee.
Until 4am.

Yeah.

That’s all I have to say right now.
I’m going to either sleep,
Or read the new Mugglenet book because I have too much in my head to sleep/study.

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Quote of the Moment: ‘Lions make you brave, giants give you faith, death is a charade, you don’t have to feel safe to feel unafraid’ – Lights (Lions!)

It puts you in a very strange position.
You want people to trust you.
You want them to come to you for help.
You want to help them.

But I don’t think many people understand that the person they trust for great advice might need some too.

You don’t want to burden your friends with your problems,
They have enough on their own.

But once and a while, it would be nice to hear ‘I’d like to help you,
Or,
‘This is what I would do in this situation’
Instead of ‘oh, that sucks…
back to my problem.’

It’s kind of hurtful.

You would think that the people who care about you would care enough to hear you out.
To listen to your problems big and small,
Help you work them out and take away some of the stress.

It seems not.
In most cases.

People get caught up in themselves and seem to forget about those around them.
Not that I think that’s bad.
I don’t.
I just wish there could be some days….

So, you’re left to solicit the ideas of passing strangers,
The characters in your head.
Venting your feelings through art, idle distractions…

Just one time,
You wish it was about you.

You wish it was your day to be the star of your life,
Instead of passing centre stage to the others in your life.

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Quote of the Moment: ‘Remember your song. The one that weaves together the notes of your life, lest you fall by the wayside and become just another forgotten melody.’

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This came out significantly harsher than I had intended….

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There is more, I will add them when I think of it.

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Quote of the Moment: ‘Time you enjoy wasting is not wasted time’ – unknown

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*Yeah, you heard me.